Memories<3

So I ended reading my old comments and blogs today. It brought back so many damn memories. Even though some were bad, I wish i could relive it again. Just to keep the thoughts of what I have in my mind. 

It was also when i realized how much I miss some people. I never knew how much I really did care. But then, flashbacks come and I don't even know what my mood is. All I could think was... "memories". They fade so easily. It's sad how everyone has only one life to live. One shot to make it memorable. One time to change. One person to spend with everyone else.

The ones that i trust and care so much for, are all slowly drifting away from me. =/

Blah. I miss you guys. Especially the ones i don't see much anymore.

Family "care" ?

Hah, so when you get disciplined by your parents, that means they care right?

Not in my case.

I mean, yah I know my parents care when they lecture me about something.

But it pisses me off how they are so damn strict.

My uncle and aunt talk smack about me behind my back like.. EVERYDAY.

They say that i dress up too much & wear too much jewelry for school.

HOW IS THAT POSSIBLE?! Have they EVER been to school and seen people?!

Omfg, I'm nothing compared to those stupid mể that are failing school.

At least I'm doing okay in school.

But yah, is wearing a necklace and a halter top too much?!

NO, RIGHT! Ughhhhhhhhhhh.

Freaken asian goody goodies. 

I have a life and i wanna live it.

Its gay how i can't have a bf till after high school.

And I have to wear tops that covers basically al my skin.

And its really stupid how I can't wear shorts.

And especially how I'm not suppose to go to the movies with friends.

Its REALLY lame going to the movies with my parents o_o"

Then when I do those things, my aunt and uncle starts 

bitching about me behind my back. Wadafacccckkkkkk.

My mom also thinks that I'm gonna get raped.

She RELLY MEANS IT TOO.

Ohmy, -_- I mean, who the fck would rape me?!

I wear a shirt that sleeveless or shows any skin, 

then BAM, i get a huge lecture.

When my mom yells at me about my clothes.

Ill understand if she gets mad if i wear a tube top or something.

But HER? She gets mad for the smallest thing.

-______________-"

And yah, I think my uncle saw me with Robert. 

Fuck.

rawr.

rawrbetch, (:

Highschool?

Hello(:

I think its been a while since I've blogged. So I'm baaaaacckkkk! Anyways, lets talk about school and each of my classes and stuff. So first period, I have bio with Kim and Gaby. It's not too bad. Usually Robert walks me to that class. and he's right next door :D lol. Then after that is math. Which Robert walks me to too! His locker is right outside my math class(: Hehee. Math would be better if we got to choose our own seats. I think I'm kind of quiet in there ><>x'D. Without Gaby, I'de prolly be so bored in there... [: After PE is lunch! I don't eat. Hung out with Robert<3>no offense, but water polo is fckin funny. Speedos. lmfao. Quynh got turned on when she saw guys in speedos running around. LMFAO. ('; My tummy started hurting cuz i was laughing my butt of and Quynh was pulling me to get to to walk there. But yah. at least i didn't have to carry any texts books home (: I ended up going home at 5:10ish. And the end :]

OH YAH, EWW ERIC IS OUR PRESIDENT, EWWWW. D;

Oh yah, i noticed, i don't cuss AS MUCH anymore. So my cuss free goal might happen (:

And i don't know what song matches with this blog. I gotta think of one, then I'll put it up asap.

Turning Point.

I don't wanna let you go.

I don't wanna tell you bye.

I don't wanna stop loving you.

I don't wanna tell you no.

I don't wanna move you from my top.

I don't wanna take you off the list.

I don't wanna make you sad.

I don't wanna block you.

I don't wanna stop talking to you.

I don't wanna do anything that will hurt you.

I don't want you to ignore me.

I don't want to be invisible to you.

I don't care if I'm invisible to anyone but you.

I don't want this to go on.

I want you to show rather than say.

I want you to prove those people wrong.

I want you to back me up.

I want this fantasy to come true.

I could go on and on about what I want for you, 

about you, with you, from you, and everything else yet nothing will happen.

Give Up

"not worth it"

fck.

Bye Summer;;

Summer's over already? It went by so fast.

But so many things have happened.

But they were both good and bad.

This, bar far, is the most memorable summer I've had.

   ->Twenty ten is coming too. Damn, I'm thinking way ahead.

Had many "firsts". So that was good. 

But too much thinking. Ugh.

Anyways, goodbye summer.

Sep 2, 2009

I'ma talk about my day today(:

Every little detail i can remember...

ENJOY ! ('=

So I slept pretty early last night, and my meanie cousin made we wake up at 8.

But yah, Im in the basemen in my cousins room, WHICH IS FREEEZING.

Goshhhhhhhhh, you people are sweating while im FREEZING.

I got the heater, with my jacket, socks, & rolled up in a blanket & went to bed.(:

WHICH IS ONLY 7 IN CALIFORNIA TIME. Ugh, i was tired.

But then I got upstairs and ate. My auntie makes me eat so much. :[

If my parents were here, i wouldn't get so damn fat; I'm a PIG! Hahaa.

So after i ate, i got really lazy. My grands went to the temple so Vy and 

i fell asleep on the couch for a while... such lazybutts. AYAHH D'x

But then she got up, and we went to the mall. For the second time this week.

I spent money... again. Damn, Im'a turn broke again. But whatevers.

My cousin, who is old than me, had to barrow my money. 

So she currently owes me 27 bucks... i got some money back by Jamba Juice, lol.

My cousin drive so scary. Its like, uber fast and she goes to close to cars,

its not even funny. :[ And she CAN NOT parallel park, AT ALL.

I'll talk about that situation later on.

After the mall, we went to McDonalds to get some food.

We were gonna go hang out at th park, but instead

my cousin's friend called and we went to Chipotle, a mexican grill.

We went there and there were her four asian guy friends...

ASIANS AT A MEXICAN GRILL, fck yah (;

And their chipotles were huuuge. And tasted funky.

My cousin's friends were there, so i felt like an outsider.

But then her bf started to tell these REALLY weird/perverted funny stories.

And boy, they were funny ('; lmfao. 

And they kept buggin me bout being a cali girl ! Ayahhh!

Haha, they were old than me. So they were gonna take me bowling.

But then i guess we went downtown instead...

Ohyyah, and i didn't eat anything. D:

I hate how everything is so uncity-like.

Trees everywhere, squirrels wander in the back yard.

But then downtown is nice (:

CITY LIGHTS ! I was in the car and it was 8 headin' downtown.

And the moon was out! It was SO pretty so i tried taking pics.

But then my lame ass camera couldn't take a decent picture.

So I was just in the care with the sunroof opened taking pictures with flash.

Then those random fat dude, honks at meh and waves to me?!

And I'm like , "WADAFACK" .. it was so weird.

But when we got there, my cousin parked.

But it took her like literally 5 minutes to parallel park.

So many people were staring and it was so funny!

Cuz there were like.. these mi den cholos in the car behind us.

And Vy was like, "shit I should be careful not to hit them 

or they're gonna come and jump meh" lmfao.

So she backed up and went forward like, TEN.. MILLION times.

She kept going to close to the car behind us.

And the hotel valet parking drivers were watching us.

So were my grandma, grandpa, aunt, and uncle, and random people.

It was intersting. Cuz when she parked and got out of the car, 

the driver dudes came across the street to tell her to move the car.

And shes like WHAT?! And she had to back up a bit. Haha..

So they payed for 1 hour of parking. We couldn't stay late 

cuz my little cousin, Tommy has school and need to go to bed. LAME !

But yah, we walked around a bit, and i got a caramel apple!

It was from ROcky Mountain Chocolate Factory! It was good.

But it was so damn sweet! SO MUCH SUGAR!

But yah, after that we went to a place that had burgers&frozen custard.

SUCH A WEIRD COMBINATION.

But they had good onion rings. (:

The weather here is really weird.

Colorado is the state that has the biggest weather change!

So in the morning it was cold.

Then afternoon it was hot D:

But then at night, it was warmish.

THEN IT STARTED RAINING. omgwtfbbq.

Thats all for today (:

Tmro= tea factory in the mountains, then back downtown to shop.

Listen, damnit.

Doesn't it piss you off when you're talking to someone and they purposely don't listen? When you talk to someone, you would probably expect them to listen. Because that's the whole point of talking to someone. Especially when you are trying to help them. But then they don't bother to tell you anything. It makes me want to give up and just yell at that person. But I always hold it in. Don't feel like sayin' much, cuz I'm flippin tired.