Sunglasses?

Most people are asking me why I always wear sunglasses where ever I go. I don't wear it much for the fashion... My mom thinks that I should "protect my eyes" from the sun. I know, weird huh? That's the only reason why I wear brand name glasses and why I always have it. >< The End. Your question is answered.

December 16, 2009

Today? Well, today turned out pretty well. There were some letdowns, but you know, the majority was great. I was at school from 7:40AM to 8:45PM. I have no life, LOL.

Started off waking up like, half an hour late. Got ready, and asked my uncle to drive me to school. I got there, talked with Timmy, met with Diana, Quynh, and Laura. Everyone went to McDonald's first. Quynh and I waited for Jae, then we walked to Ralston. Quynh had a panic attack scared that she would get caught. Silly Quynh. (: At first, I thought it was piontless to go to Ralston since I hardly knew anyone there But I was wrong! I met Little Miss Michelle! It was funny, 'cause she ran to me and hugged me saying, "HIIIIIIIIIIIIII SOPHIAA!" And at first I had no idea who was hugging me. Then I saw her face and it was her! LOL, WE MEET AT LAST! :D She's a cutie. (: But yeah, Jae got caught by a sub. o_o He got kicked out, and eventually,  Quynh and I went out too. Saw Jae with Neil, John, and that one guy (forgot his name) D:. We walked to McDonald's. Saw lots of people, lol. Then DAVID CAME(: with Tram! And we soon walked back to Grove. 

So at school, everything was a normal routine. I was in a goodish mood. 'Cept I was tired... again. On the way to class, we saw Vy. That was when I remembered it was her birthday and i forgot her card at home. x_x I bet Imma forget tomorrow too. Lalala, at lunch, I went to Key Club meeting. Boring. I can't go to the events, like usual. Too busy. But then I got Sophia and Quynh time, lol. [: THEN DAVID WENT MISSING. But i found him waiting at my 5th period class. :D Then soon school ended. 

Afterschool was intersting/ boring/ tired/ lame/ fun. 

I AM SUPER TIRED. I'll finish this blog tomorrow or something.

I wish I could read your mind right now. I wish I see what you see. And know what you think. 

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Whether it's good or bad. 

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Alive.

          Usually, I would probably be blogging about how I'm stuck between fantasy and reality; or some kind of dilemma; or simply a small problem that I worry about more than I should. But this time, I know where I am. I'm here in reality. But who says it can't be like a fantasy? Everything's going great. I don't get the feeling anymore. I noticed I haven't really complained as much. It's an improvement! Ahh, I sound freaken wierd. But ist true. 

the end.

Thanksgiving break.

Let's sum up my thanksgiving break since I don't feel like doing homework right now. Thursday: My cousins came over. I helped me mom make breakfast for em. Little kids were scattered around my house playing games again, lol. Then I asked my mom to take me to Phuoc Loc Tho since I was bored and needed to get out of the house before I died. So I went, my mom kept seeing poeple she knew. I wanted a new earring for my outliered piercing, and fake earrings are starting an infection D: So i chose a pair, they were so so so so so cute. But it costed too much and the guy was like, "Just get her fake ones." So she made me choose a fake pair. It was cute, the dude wanted 40 for it. It was ten times cheaper then the real ones!-_- But my mom said I lose things to easily, so she walked away and didn't get it for me. SADFACE. That was my adventure @ the asian garden mall. When I got home, I decided to get my hair trimmed, cos I had so many spilt ends :'[ The guy that cut my hair did very well. He cut it exactly how i wanted it. But then I had so many split ends so I got so much of my hair cut off. The long hair, was actually really long; it just wasn't very visible. But yeah, I look bad with short hair. In the evening, I went over to my auntie's place for Thanksgiving dinner. Friday: My mom said I have too many clothes already& my dad got pissed at us for buying too much stuff, so I she wouldn't let me go shopping with her. But I went to the block with Susan instead. David couldn't go. :'[ But I got quality time with my cousin, LOL. We shopped, I spent more than I should have x_x & Jimmy came around 1:30? He called John, he couldn't go. So I was stuck with Jimmy. I chose most of the things he bought. He's an ass [: BUt anyways, SAW NEW MOON. Susan and I kept laughing. O_O" Taylor Laughter! :] Then my mom called, she got pissed for staying out so long. -_-" Got home, ate dinner, quiet family. Bleh. :p SATURDAY: Normal routine. Cept no tutoring. Glasses, omg, I look bad with glasses. Anyways~~Had a different dinner party @ other auntie's. Came home @ 11? And I was flippin tired. But then by the time i got home and showered, i didn't feel like sleeping anymore. So got on my laptop. Barely anyone was online. Ended up talking to Tam for a bit. FOUND OUT HE HATES MILK TOO! lol. & went to bed @ 1:30. SUNDAY: No viet school today. I woke up from Quynh's phone call. Talked. She was happy, :] Cleaned my room. Entirely. My mom's going to the mall today, and once again won't let me come. Grrrr. Now I'mma do homework, practice instruments, and going to other-other auntie's for dinner tonight. Haven't seen Katie for a week. And Emmy since forever. Hahaaa.

I need more hangers.. O_o 

Learning.

Might make a cover.

 Maybe. 

If my voice doesn't come out so gay.

I WANNA GO SHOPPING.

GRADES ARE COMING.

Which means I'm going to die.

So if you don't see me at school, then you know why.

D:

One more day of school, and I'm FREEEEE, for only a few days.

Can't wait till winter break. Grr.

I wanna see New Moon even though people say it sucks balls.

Still wanna see it. -_-"

Huy's party this weekend?

Thanksgiving party @ auntie's on friday.

Think I'ma stay home friday.

BLACK FRIDAY, and im not shopping -_-"

Cuz daddy yelled at my mom for shopping too much.

So i have to wait...

ANYWAYS, I'm in a good mood [:

Don't kill it.

waiting for November 20, 2013.

omfg.

Yeah, I'm too chicken to put your names.

Figure it out.

1. You the promise you made to me.

2. You, also broke the promise you made.

3. Why would you make others do it if you said you wouldn't?

4. My parents are pissed at me, idk why.

5. The damn school called my mom telling her I ditched 1st, which I didn't.

6. Thanks for leaving me with all the work -_-"

7. I hate school.

Ugh.

I trust people too easily. Ugh.

Ouch.

It hurts to be replaced.

November 20, 2013

New goal that will take four long years:

When I'm 18, which is in four years, 

John Teves and I will meet up for coffee on this exact day (:

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Lost with you.

"I'm feeling lost in love but do I really wanna be found?"

 -Tje Austin

Without you I'm lost.

But with you, I still can't find that path.

It's that feeling again. The find of feeling that is expressed in songs. Where it can be changed, but you're the only one who can control it. It's hard. Thoughts dominate & it just feels like there is a hole that is impossible to mend. Is it jealousy? Or just selfishness? The search for myself is still in process. How do I think I found you, when I haven't even found myself yet? In my heart I know that I can't get away from you. I don't want a come and go kinda of thing. Once I got you, I have you forever. No one else's. As selfish as I sound, that's just how it's gonna be. Yet, I don't think its possible. It doesn't seem possible? I'm so confused. How could a mind so young be in such deep thought? Like my mommy always tells me, "A kid is always trying to act mature and be like an adult. But adults are always wishing they are still kid, where life is simple with no worries. Where everything is taken care of, and all you have to do is play along." My mom would say that over and over. To any problem I have, that can apply to it. When I think about it, how come I'm not proving that theory? Why not drop everything and move on? I'm still a kid? According to her, I should just drift through life... I'm making things way more complicated than they are. I worry about the smallest things. I believe every superstitious thing out there and attempt to fix my wrongs. Making rights isn't as easy as it seems. Should I forget about it? I mean, if I don't, I just go through this over and over. Like life put on replay. Just not as positive as it sounds. There are things I know I should have said, yet I don't.  And here I am complaining about something that's my own fault. Bleh, I don't even think i make any sense. So Im'a stfu now before I spill something that shouldn't be said. Things are better off not told?

11/16/09

Got the best birthday gift ever.

David Duong- Est. November 16, 2009. 

♥♥♥

Thank you to every who wished me happy birthday. :]

& today had its ups and downs.

I'm guessing you heard some shit went down, right?

If you believe rumors, then that's your own problem.

Well, lets get it straight.

I don't want to mess with anyone for any reason.

Don't wanna go into details. 

Btw, Happy birthday Kevin Pham.

And tomorrow, happy early birthday Hoang Bui.

And soon, happy early birthday to Calvin Nguyen.

And next week happy early birthday to Trung Pham.

And also soon, happy early birthday to Gaby Chavez.

Goodbye.

Waiting for Nov 16.

Don't think my smile could get any bigger ( :

44<3

I don't know how to tell you.

<3(:

HYPER.

LOL This morning I was like so hyper. LOL...

Quynh was like wtf?

& today was actually a good day.

I felt like running today o___o"

HAHA, but yeah.

Right now Im pretty chill too (:

Things are coming together, he talks to me now.

Although they still hate each other.

Afterschool was fun, LOL.

THE END. short blog, oh well. lalalalalaaa[:

Go away.

When I see those pictures, tears flow.

When I hear those songs, flashbacks come.

When I read those words, my heart aches.

When I talk to you, I miss those times.

When I think of you, I can't stop.

When I sleep, I want to wake up screaming.

All because of you.

    I don't want this, I know I don't want this.

Everything draws back to you, and I don't get why.

I want it to stop.

Read.

Why are you ignoring me? 

I just want you.

Theres something I gotta say to you

But im so afraid of what you'll do

ohhhh

I'll just admit this to you now

That Im stuck on you like glue somehow

ohhhh

Don't wanna feel so cold inside

I wanna feel the warmth that I feel with you all the time

Surrounding me just like the wind

Cuz youre the one who makes me sing

Help me find myself 

like how I found you

ohhh

I need you so we can live happily too

ohhh

I just want you x2

I wanna go out with you tonight

A picnic with candlelight

I might just hold you tight

Tell me you wanna be my queen

If not its ok a princess seems just my 

type I promise I'll be there tonight

I wanna keep you warm in winter's white

And in the summer walks on beach sound nice

I need you now

 to talk with on the phone for hours at a time

Baby I just want you to be mine all mine

Help me find myself like how I found you oh 

I need you so we can live happily too ohh

I just want you

I wanna be ur valentine , 

ur Christmas wish, ur pickup line

I wanna be the one who knows about ur 

friends and foes and the tv shows you love

Look above the stars spell out ur name 

with an exclamation point at the end of the day 

ur the one who makes me say

Help me find myself like how I found you oh 

I need you so we can live happily too ohh

Today.

Today had it's ups and downs.

Goods of the day:

1. I got 100 pounds off my shoulder, so I won't be bugged anymore.

2. Things kinda are getting back to normal.

3. Didn't get my ass kicked today, yay...

4. "I wanna be your Valentine, your Christmas wish, your pick up line"

Now the shit of the day:

1. QIUT BEING A PUSSY; COME CLEAN & TELL ME. My gosh. -_-

2. I keep eating junk food, D;

3. I have so much history homework. Fml. This is what I get for procrastinating.

Shit.

SUPER AWKWARD DAY.

the end.

Fairytale.

Don't you wish life was a fairy tale?

Those stupid love stories make it seem so easy to get through life.

Why is it that everything i do hurts someone.

Anyone, everyone, including you.

I don't like seeing people like this.

I don't wanna see my friends getting hurt cause of me.

And right now, its killing me to know that I've basically ripped out the hearts of 5 people and I'm sorry.

Still Wondering.

Is it something I do?

Did I change?

Why can't you tell me things?

Do you not trust me anymore?

How come it seems so different?

I can't tell you my life, 

cos I can hardly get through it,

so why do you expect so much from me?

"I watch the night turn light blue.

But it's not the same without you, 

Because it takes two to whisper quietly, 

The silence isn't so bad, 

Till I look at my hands and feel sad, 

'Cause the spaces between my fingers

Are right where yours fit perfectly."

BOO!

I have to say, this by far is the best Halloween.

Ninja costume... simple, yet it was cool (:

Saw manny today, lol went ninja status and jumped out of no where :D

Went with Aristotle too! Hehee, fun, fun.

Kim & Jess were so cute[:

I got nothing for UNICEF from trick or treating.

But got a lot at the Halloween party I went to afterwards. (x

My back is itching, wtf.

Updating.

Hey love, I did read it. Don't worry. My mind is confusing. Don't stress yourself over it. Sorry I haven't talked much. I just have so many things going on right now.

Lets update my latest life problems:

I got in major trouble last weekend. So I'm grounded, for the first time, my friend thinks that fighting my other friend would resolve their stupid complications, my grades are so bad- at least I'm raising it a little, my parents don't freaken trust me, my friends are slowly drifting away, piano pisses the shit out of me and i keep getting F's and getting @ by my teacher, I'v been way behind in the guitar songs, cello is so hard to play considering I have tiny fingers so i get bitched at by my teacher every day, and dude, I'm just plain sleepy. *yawn.

I haven't blogged in a while. And this is the perfect time to blog again.

I wish I had my own little advisor. Someone who would know exactly how I'm feeling and can help me with my stupid problems. And the worse part is, my problems are things that I shouldn't even worry about. I mean, two people. Two different minds. But once they meet up in the middle, the blame is all on me.I don't like my friends fighting. I don't want to hear about a rivalry. Even though I have this problem too, I don't want others to suffer. It kills me so badly. I don't like hearing lies. Especially when I don't know who's telling the truth. Especially when the begging comes in. Guilt tripping me makes it worse. It takes time to gain my trust. It's stupid how I get so confused about what's happening around me. Isn't school a learning environment? Where our goal is to get to college, and get a fucking life?! But no, it's just trouble. My parents are plain clueless about the reality of school. It's more than learning, way more. 

& eh, i dont feel like writin anymore, bye blog.

Think About It

I noticed, that if I think about something I want, it makes me want it even more. 

But then if i know I'm not going to get it, then I won't search for it as much.

LOL, I'm so confusing, xD

Thursday(=

Saw Hoang and Manny.

So I'm happy (:

100 things i strongly dislike:

1. liars.

2. people who lie for there own advantage

3. cheaters

4. stubborn people

5. people's who don't listen to me

6. reading

7. books

8. milk

9. ditchers

10. people who ignore me purposely

11. people who take advantage of others

12. selfish people

13. cats

14. scary movies

15. anything scary

16. fake jewelry

17. cheap stuff

18. posers

19. techno ><

20. learning

21. old stuff

22. smelly stuff

23. wide shirts...

24. chain mails

25. teachers who choose favorites

26. strict teachers

27. mrs powers T.T

28. asian music

29. manga

30. anime

31. maple story addicts

32. spoilers

33. homework

34. people who back talk

35. people who talk behind other's backs

36. piano

37. people who boast

38. heavy books

39. yummy food that have a whole mess of calories D:<

40. unsharp knives

41. ugly pictures

42. going to a store with no one else & workers ask you for help

43. pretty clothes that are uber expensive D:<<

44. my hair

45. split ends

46. wannabes

47. TOM

48. hackers

49. when its too hot or too cold

50. pretty shoes with huge heals

51. uber duber tall people D:

52. fail photostickers x)

53. asian parents

54. ugly shoes

55. algebra 2/ trig

56. cinnamon

57. when my feet or hands are cold

58. being a loner

59. dead things :[

60. professional people ! ahaha.

61. people who glare o_o

62. heartbreakers

63. loud sounds while i'm trying to do homework

64. lazy people

65. bad scents

66. people who where wayy to much perfume

67. cheap perfume

68. promise breakers

69. people who need to get a room instead of making out and basically having kinky sex in public

70. people who only know how to grind at dances

71. dumb pepo ._.

72. random phone calls from strangers

73. my parents nagging me

74. people who talk uer quiet

75. people who bug me when im listening to music

76. people who bug when im doing ANYTHING.

77. when my internet lags

78. when AIM lags

79. people who are mean to freshmen

80. bullies who pick on poor asian kids

81. smelly lotion

82. awkward silences

83. mean looks

84. ugly drawings

85. crab...

86. small malls

87. when stores don't have the shoes i want in my size

88. hobos scare me :[

89. slutty bitches

90. coloring -_-

91. love songs<3

92. uncensored music that my parents understand

93. overly confident people

94. when my nose turns red or is cold !

95. guys who act like sissy girls

96. messy things

97. my ugly writing

98. myself

99. i hate that i love you

100. I hate internal conflicts where my guts won't let me do what i want, yet I know its teh right thing to do.

As you can see, I don't like a lot of things...

I'm blinded by looks  only.

eh.

Mooooving On.

My name is Sophia, 

and I am happy (:

hahhaha, thats so lame x)

Douche.

Fckin douchebag who doesn't care about anyone's feelings.

You can just let go of someone and expect them to be fine.

You may be ok, BUT IM NOT.

So if i ignore you, then let it be.

Your friends don't need to call you a dick.

YOU SHOULD KNOW YOU.

That was nice.

Thank you Calvin and Chris for making me feel a lot better.

Today was fun.

After guitar an piano, went to Bolsa Grande & met up with Kim, Calvin, and Chris.

I was a kinda.... really late though. But eh, they're okay. :D

It took me and Calvin 30 minutes to sing a 3 minute song.. hehe. (:

I have bad memory, but that was still fun.

I can't believe I actually sang though, lol.

Kim left then we headed to Tastea.

It was intersting walking there (x

Stupid chris is crippled and walked uber slow, HAHA [:

So he was being pushed in a cart by Calvin.

They almost died... literally. PWAHAHAHA.(';

Then I wanted to take photostickers. :D

So it was me, calvin, chris and my little brother taking pictures.

And oh yah, I saw Bailey there with her friends, haha.

Trung came to Bolsa Grande by the time we left.

So never met up with him.

After we took photostickers, we went to tastea. Yum(:

After tastea was Carl's Jr.

I took another picture with Calvin, 

but my phone went stupid and deleted it, grr. -.-

We were planning to walk back to Bolsa Grande so 

Calvin can be asian and try moon cake for the first time...

But then my mommy called and i had to leave >;[

Had to go home and get ready for a bday party in LA. woohoo, how fun.

So we left Calvin and Chris at Carl's Jr. 

I'm so nice (:

Well, it was fun. 

Without em, i prolly woulda been at home rotting.

Great to see em again after like.. a month? Haha.

& photosticker pics will be posted when i have time to scan it.

<3 

october2,2009=/

I saw it coming.

I don't like myself.

I can't believe I actually cried.

Hardest i have since a long time.

But I guess, I needed to let it out, right?

Ugh, fml still.

turn up your speakers 

&listen to the song, its good.

Thinking ?

Grr, i still dont understand things. 

wtf.

Memories<3

So I ended reading my old comments and blogs today. It brought back so many damn memories. Even though some were bad, I wish i could relive it again. Just to keep the thoughts of what I have in my mind. 

It was also when i realized how much I miss some people. I never knew how much I really did care. But then, flashbacks come and I don't even know what my mood is. All I could think was... "memories". They fade so easily. It's sad how everyone has only one life to live. One shot to make it memorable. One time to change. One person to spend with everyone else.

The ones that i trust and care so much for, are all slowly drifting away from me. =/

Blah. I miss you guys. Especially the ones i don't see much anymore.

Family "care" ?

Hah, so when you get disciplined by your parents, that means they care right?

Not in my case.

I mean, yah I know my parents care when they lecture me about something.

But it pisses me off how they are so damn strict.

My uncle and aunt talk smack about me behind my back like.. EVERYDAY.

They say that i dress up too much & wear too much jewelry for school.

HOW IS THAT POSSIBLE?! Have they EVER been to school and seen people?!

Omfg, I'm nothing compared to those stupid mể that are failing school.

At least I'm doing okay in school.

But yah, is wearing a necklace and a halter top too much?!

NO, RIGHT! Ughhhhhhhhhhh.

Freaken asian goody goodies. 

I have a life and i wanna live it.

Its gay how i can't have a bf till after high school.

And I have to wear tops that covers basically al my skin.

And its really stupid how I can't wear shorts.

And especially how I'm not suppose to go to the movies with friends.

Its REALLY lame going to the movies with my parents o_o"

Then when I do those things, my aunt and uncle starts 

bitching about me behind my back. Wadafacccckkkkkk.

My mom also thinks that I'm gonna get raped.

She RELLY MEANS IT TOO.

Ohmy, -_- I mean, who the fck would rape me?!

I wear a shirt that sleeveless or shows any skin, 

then BAM, i get a huge lecture.

When my mom yells at me about my clothes.

Ill understand if she gets mad if i wear a tube top or something.

But HER? She gets mad for the smallest thing.

-______________-"

And yah, I think my uncle saw me with Robert. 

Fuck.

rawr.

rawrbetch, (:

Highschool?

Hello(:

I think its been a while since I've blogged. So I'm baaaaacckkkk! Anyways, lets talk about school and each of my classes and stuff. So first period, I have bio with Kim and Gaby. It's not too bad. Usually Robert walks me to that class. and he's right next door :D lol. Then after that is math. Which Robert walks me to too! His locker is right outside my math class(: Hehee. Math would be better if we got to choose our own seats. I think I'm kind of quiet in there ><>x'D. Without Gaby, I'de prolly be so bored in there... [: After PE is lunch! I don't eat. Hung out with Robert<3>no offense, but water polo is fckin funny. Speedos. lmfao. Quynh got turned on when she saw guys in speedos running around. LMFAO. ('; My tummy started hurting cuz i was laughing my butt of and Quynh was pulling me to get to to walk there. But yah. at least i didn't have to carry any texts books home (: I ended up going home at 5:10ish. And the end :]

OH YAH, EWW ERIC IS OUR PRESIDENT, EWWWW. D;

Oh yah, i noticed, i don't cuss AS MUCH anymore. So my cuss free goal might happen (:

And i don't know what song matches with this blog. I gotta think of one, then I'll put it up asap.

Turning Point.

I don't wanna let you go.

I don't wanna tell you bye.

I don't wanna stop loving you.

I don't wanna tell you no.

I don't wanna move you from my top.

I don't wanna take you off the list.

I don't wanna make you sad.

I don't wanna block you.

I don't wanna stop talking to you.

I don't wanna do anything that will hurt you.

I don't want you to ignore me.

I don't want to be invisible to you.

I don't care if I'm invisible to anyone but you.

I don't want this to go on.

I want you to show rather than say.

I want you to prove those people wrong.

I want you to back me up.

I want this fantasy to come true.

I could go on and on about what I want for you, 

about you, with you, from you, and everything else yet nothing will happen.